GOTTA GET BACK ON TRACK!
May 20, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NA0xF8tPwoA

[Music]
hey you guys and welcome to Sunday I
cannot believe we're already at the end
of another weekend like come on feel
like we just actually started the
weekend but we didn't um this week it
was a really good week and I will say I
had a really good pretty good weekend
for the most part I undo much but hey
you know what sometimes that's what you
need
so yesterday I just kind of I just
chilled it was a really nasty nasty
weather day we had thunderstorms and it
was lightning and power lines were down
it was bad but I adventured out which
I'm surprised I did because
thunderstorms and lightning storms to me
are like you are hunkered down inside
your house hiding under a pillow turning
on a fan so you can't hear nothing yeah
that's that's me but I had to go to
Hobby Lobby to go get glitter for a cup
that I'm gonna be getting ready to
prepare and I had to go out and get it
and so all he calls me he's like Amy
where are you at I'm like I'm on my way
home and like why knees like cuz it's
getting bad out there and I'm so worried
about you like come home and I'm like
okay and he's like the babies are
sitting right next to me like all up and
slide my armpits because they're scared
I'm like oh I said did you shut the
windows and he's like yeah I shot the
windows but um yeah the kids were not
handling that very well which I don't
think we've had no I don't think we've
had any like actual real thunderstorms
or lightning or anything since the
babies were have been born when we very
first moved up here we had them like all
the time and I thought oh my gosh is
this gonna be like a thing is every
night we're gonna have thunder and
lightning storms but they went away like
we haven't had any for a long time but
yeah
today was exceptionally bad today it's
been really okay it's started out really
pretty in it's ended really gloomy but I
mean I'm okay with that I'd rather
gloomy than thunder lightning storms so
wait was good but yeah so I went and did
that and then today I didn't do nothing
nothing I cleaned I cleaned the whole
house up I did two loads of laundry and
then three o'clock I was so tired and so
I laid back and boom I was out I slept
for three hours I'm like I woke up and
I'm like oh my gosh well whoa what am I
doing here so yeah and it was in my
while I was taking a nap I had a dream
and I remember like it almost felt like
it was real because I feel like I was
crying outside of my realtor outside of
my dream but the dream was just like
coming to realize that at the end of the
day as many people's I thought were like
my friends or supporters not supporters
but like people that have my back and
and this is like not in today's time
like this is when I was a little bit
younger um those people were really not
there when I really needed them during
my dream and I remember just crying and
crying and crying in my dream like it
was so sad and a very hurtful and
painful time for me I guess because it
was like I was just realizing that the
people that I thought would have been
there like holding me back you know
holding me back or holding my back up
while I felt like I was falling or
needed that extra comfort and support
they were all gone and they were too
busy or you know whatever they were
going through at that time so it was
and so when I woke up for my nap I was
pretty sad I was like oh my gosh I was a
sad dream but anyways and then on
another note after I woke up I woke up
to all a saying Amy you have something
at the door I'm like what door so I
wasn't expecting anything because I
didn't order anything and it was an
Amazon package and I thought Hamazon
like I was really rolling it through my
brain like what did I order I couldn't
remember but when I opened it up
somebody very very special to me very
special to me ordered me a cup tumbler
Turner you guys have no idea how
grateful that I am thank you to the one
that bought me this you mean more to me
than I could even I can't even say how
special you are to me and everybody is
special to me and not just because
somebody buys me a gift that they become
more special than the other person don't
get me wrong like now that's not it
but for somebody to see and recognize
and want to do something so special just
I was just shocked and I still AM cuz
when I opened I was like what is that
and then I looked up Turner and I'm like
wide and I knew for sure it was not me
that ordered it but when I opened it and
I seen the who it was from
I was just so thank you thank you thank
you to this special person that sent me
this cup turner it's going to be used so
well
I have one but I was desperately needing
at least another one because like right
now I have 20 cups on order that I need
to get out and I only have one Turner's
so once I finish like once one cup goes
on the Turner I'm kind of at a
standstill I I can't do anything more
because you have to wait until that cups
up to put another one to get it going
and so I just you know I didn't know
what I was gonna do but I make do with
what I have because that's why I've done
all along but when somebody has blessed
me with something so amazing
this is gonna make my business be able
to be even that much more productive
because I can get that many more cups
out quickly and so I am just I am over
the moon
thank you again I love you I appreciate
you you know exactly who you are and I
just want to say I think you think you
thank you and as most know some don't
know but some do some don't I will be
launching my very first real website and
I will be doing that this coming week I
will be opening up my first website I am
so excited this is going to be something
that I have always dreamed of but I
never thought would ever be I thought I
thought it was a dream I thought it was
something that you know I knew what I
wanted but I never thought that it would
ever come true and seeing this happening
is making it more real and like life is
really happening and I'm so excited and
so by the 22nd I will finally officially
have a website with a website name I
could give people so they can go on and
look at my cups and order and you know
it's just gonna make everything so much
easier and more smooth and it's just I'm
really excited about the entire jest of
it all like I'm just like
so with having to Turner's like I said
it's gonna make life so much easier but
I've got a lot of things I'm gonna
change around I'm gonna make one station
for my cups one station for my vinylene
because you know I've got everything
kind of intermix right now and it's just
a big mess but I'm gonna go ahead and
switch things around kind of clean
things up I need to make things as
smooth and not so crammed that way then
we can actually be productive in
business and making cups and you know
whatever else is being ordered on the
Internet
so anyways yeah I wanted to just go
right I wanted to just come on and just
check in with you guys to let you guys
know that I thank you for again all of
the sweet and kind words that you guys
give me every single day I thank you for
the amazing beautiful wonderful gifts
that I receive throughout my time that
I've been here on YouTube I would never
imagine that being a part of this
journey that I have taken but
nonetheless it makes me so grateful to
have such amazing people in my life and
every one of you guys like I've said
before and I will say it again and again
and over again each and every one of you
guys care a very special place in my
heart and I care for each and every one
of you guys and I just wish that there
was more that I could do for you all
because you know I I get so blessed by
each and every one of you guys I feel
like there should be something that I'm
able to do for you I was asked if I was
gonna do a giveaway this month I'm
actually going to hold off on doing a
giveaway this month I will come back on
doing giveaways next month but this
month I'm holding off because there's so
many things going on right now and I
just don't want to be at a point where
I fail to follow up with my word so I
want to get in a really good routine get
my you know my my room put up the way
that needs to be and then we will get
back to doing the giveaways and stuff
like that so please don't think that
I've forgotten you guys I have not but I
just need to get well I mean I did
actually forgot I don't know why I was
thinking I already did it but I think
that's because I sent Quito Mama's shirt
from like months ago that she deserved
to have and I sent it this month so I'm
thinking that's why I was thinking
giveaway but it really wasn't but I will
definitely be getting in another
giveaway out don't don't even worry it
will happen is just let me get things
kind of organized situated and then we
will get back on the groove another
thing too is I wanted to get back to our
reading excuse my book because my
children have had fun with it and got a
hold of it and yes they tore my book but
don't worry they were in trouble but
this is the book we have not finished
our book I have completely forgot about
my book but I want to get back into that
because I really enjoyed my readings and
we have another book that I had already
purchased and some of you guys have
already purchased to go along with me
and having this been able to start that
book so we're gonna get back into our
readings and all of that good stuff
because those are all things that I
enjoy doing so March 12th even on your
worst days you are worthy of love
consideration and respect refuse to
accept anything less even on your worst
days you are worthy of love
consideration and respect refuse to
accept anything less that's a very good
start off reading paragraph that was
good that that was good I needed to hear
that and I'm sure there's many of you
guys out there that do do and you know
that's a great reminder because some
days I
forget that I still you know even on
like you know that's a good reminder for
even like with my husband you know when
he's having one of his days he still
deserves to have the consideration the
respect and the love you know that I
would give him on any other day just
because he's having a rough day doesn't
mean that I need to give him a rough
time or vice versa you know and we're
usually really good about that but you
know with fasting and stuff it's a
little bit more you know our tempers are
you know at their highest when you're
fasting because you're hungry you're
thirsty you are uncomfortable sometimes
and it's not easy it's you know no no
fasting is easy I'm not I am NOT gonna
sit here and take anything about anybody
saying all fasting it's absolutely the
most easiest thing ever because it's not
when you go for multiple amounts of
hours without eating or drinking or
putting anything in your mouth and you
still have to live life it's not easy
but you can do it it takes a lot of
willpower but there are those days where
you just want to shut down and you just
want to be like I can't do it you know
I'm just I can't do it and it's you know
those are the days that you need that
extra push to say yes you can do it you
can do it and you will do it because I
know in your heart you want to do it and
so yeah it's I mean and that could be
for anything it doesn't have to just be
for fasting but that's right now what
I'm going through with Miam you know
Olly is our fasting you know because
it's not you know when you're still
having to deal with a household and
you're still having to deal with your
responsibilities and your you know your
little children that need to have
tending to and food cooked for and
they're full of energy even though
you're dropped from energy because you
just don't have the you know the energy
boost that they all have you know it
does get frustrating and like this
morning I have literally been up since 6
o'clock and I was I thought
that my cycle had started so I didn't
think I was going too fast but then it
stopped so I don't know what's going on
with my body but I started fasting again
and as her I had welcomed me up at six
o'clock this morning hence that's
probably why I went and took a nap
because I have literally been up since
6:00 so I have been up since 6:00 so my
fast started even sooner than some
because you know yes you're fast always
starts at a certain time but your body
doesn't really fill it until you've
woken up and you start your day and
you're just like ok I'm here I'm ready
you know and that's kind of where I was
today was I started my fast at 6 o'clock
as my body started moving around at 6
and so I'm going from 6 o'clock
being awake until whatever time we break
fast which we're now at 8:40 I want to
say is when we can eat so you know we
don't eat until that time and so my body
has been going from 6 o'clock until 8:40
tonight was nothing to drink nothing to
eat and so you know it's just it is what
it is but it's you know it is a good
time to reset your body it's a good time
to really find your core inner peace of
knowing that this is something you want
to do and you're proud to say that
you're doing it doesn't make it easy but
it still is a good thing when you
finally finish it's like doing a
marathon you know what's lying ahead of
you you know it's gonna be hard you know
it's gonna be a struggle but you're
willing to do it because you want to
have that outcome at the end and that's
just like fasting you know you know it's
gonna be hard it's not gonna be easy and
you know for the most part mean all you
you know we stay in our own lanes you
know when we're grumpy or something we
just kind of we'll keep to ourselves
you know we kind of know that but there
are been moments where we're like okay
and you know I'm surprised one of us
haven't packed her bag and disappeared
for the rest of Ramadan but no I love
him so much and I know he loves me it's
just these are the times that are trying
for some couples because it's
not always easy it's not blue skies and
sunny days every single day can be
gloomy days haha
so anyways I don't know where I rambled
off on to that but anyways Ramadan will
be over I think it's the first week of
deserve December Wow
better not be that far out it's the
first week I believe did you guys see my
crew I don't think I even showed you
guys my purse this is my Mother's Day
purse that I got look at that isn't it
cute it's nothing fancy it's not a named
varium first but I changed my purses
like I changed my underwear which is
like I change them almost every single
day well I do change my underwear every
day whoa hold up but I changed my honey
my purse is almost daily so it's almost
like changing my door and then I got my
wallet
isn't that pretty and it just it has
like jewels oh so cute and then it just
opens up like big and wide enough of
that but uh oh I know what I was doing I
was gonna get my calendar out so well I
was going to get my calendar out where
is my calendar so Ramadan actually gets
over the 11th of June no that's the no
so it's the 3rd or the 4th will be when
Ramadan is over so we technically only
have
OMERS out my door um 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9
10 11 12 13 14 either 15 or 16 more days
that's it I mean you know we're doing
pretty good we're already down and a
little bit more to go and it'll be a
done thing but yeah so and then once
fasting is over once Ramadan too over
then like I have talked about in the you
know previously things are gonna change
big time because Amy's got to get on my
my will of losing weight I just haven't
figured out what I want to do yet to
really start working on it i you know i
i've seen so much about keto and stuff
like that i just don't know if it's
really i mean technically when i lost my
last part of my weight when I lost the
78 pounds I basically just went low-carb
and exercised I'm pretty sure that's all
I did and I could probably do that again
you know just do low-carb and exercise
and I probably would drop again but I
really need to like snap myself out of
it and which I am I already feel like
I'm like antsy to start but there's no
point right now in trying to do any type
of eating regiment nothing like that
because when you can only eat one meal a
day you need to get your nutrition in
which I'm not saying like over stuff
yourself or anything like that but you
need to eat you know so I didn't think
that going through Ramadan would be a
smart time to start that so I'm gonna do
it right after Ramadan which is what I
did last year and that's when I lost 78
pounds so - what I've probably already
gained back I don't know because like I
said I have not touched the scale I have
a lot to do and I'm going to do it so
I'm gonna do it with you guys because I
got lots of people that are like I'm
get back on the track and we're gonna do
this together and I am and we we are
going to do this together because again
all of us are like a family community of
each other and so yeah anyways well I'm
gonna stop rambling because you know
that's what I do best but I just wanted
to check in with you guys and just say
happy Sunday and share with you guys
this amazing gift that I received from a
special somebody and just kind of you
know fill you in with everything and let
you know how I'm doing and tomorrow is
counseling it's back on the grind of the
week so I got lots of things that I'm
gonna be doing this week along with I
have an order for 20 cups like I had
said so Ami's can be busy for the next
few days but that's good I love having
my orders it just makes my heart sing
when I have them so anyways for the ones
that have been asking about ordering
cups hold tight because I would rather
just wait until I get my website up and
then with my website I can accept credit
card and PayPal and do the whole thing
and it'll make it so much easier for you
guys so anywho I am going to close here
and I will try and check in with you
guys tomorrow I think it would be a nice
time to to check in and just say
official good morning to you guys
tomorrow so take care and have a
wonderful evening with you guys as
friends and families and I'll talk to
you tomorrow
